Posted by Old School on August 29, 2001 at 22:21:44:
In Reply to: Nope posted by Un_Loved on August 09, 2001 at 16:36:58:
Waited a second -- you say that you have "searched high and low for God" --- I just don't believe you. Where did you look? What exactly did you do? How did you conduct this search? What kind of action did you take?
Here's my guess: You did nothing.
I'm sorry but this sort of self centered whining about your woes and then blaming God makes me wanna wretch. You know what? I could say that God took my sister too -- but then I would be a whiny sniveling self pitying little turd, wouldn't I?
I realize that's not terribly compassionate but when you say you "looked high and low" and didn't find God I just have to ask you What exactly did you do???
One debator in this discussion has promised to look high and low and I have never heard his reply to a suggestion I made a year ago about finding a quiet moment and breathing and asking for an answer and then just waiting with his breath...
But I can assure you that if you take a moment and honestly seek God, something will happen, something subtle or maybe extreme, but something somewhere will change in you and you will come to know that there is a loving God in this universe -- completely incomphensible though he/she/it maybe -- but there and full of compassion, even though it may seem he/she/it is filled with spite.
It is hard for me to admit it but many wonders came into my life after my sister died -- primary among these is that I developed a deeper understanding about how much a human being could hurt and have, in small ways, grown into a more compassionate person because of it. (Even though a great measure of me still remains mean.)
When you want to stop the hurting you really actually do have to take the action of looking high and low -- and that action is simple -- get quiet and remain quiet -- ask.
Simple.
Try it.
: I have search high and low for "God" I have needed him so many times in this joke I call life, no where to be found. He stole my mom from me, tried to steal my daughter. Stole my sons father from him. Watch as I was raped as a child. Never comforted me in the night as I cried, never answered my prayers, nothing. Walk a day in my shoes, then tell me there is "God"