Posted by Rocky Jones on June 22, 2001 at 10:45:52:
Uh oh -- day five and experiencing enormouse cravings for fattening food as if my body is resisting all these emotions and introspections that seem to be appearing as I clean up my diet! So, yeah, how to deal with these cravings. Well, remember the P.I.G.s I told you about -- the people in groups... I do not go to those groups but I did go a couple times and I remember them talking about this thing... I remember a good deal of it... they talked about this thing as an illness so, the first notion in dealing with the cravings is that I need to remember that these cravings are secondary to having this eating illness or over eating illness or whatever it is. You see
-- oh shit, someone just came and distracted me and now I have no idea what I was talking about -- o, here it is, yes, the illness... they say, is not just physical. that's it. The cause for all this fat around my belly is physical, mental and spiritual. I know that sounds crazy but at some point I have to believe there is a way out of this fat that isn't going to kill me and I'm ready to believe anything at this point -- as long as I don't have to talk to the pigs too much -- anyway, so what I'm supposed to do with these cravings is acknowledge that they are sympotmatic of the physical and mental illness and open myself up to the fact that the solution is spiritual and that all I have to do is ask for the spiritual healing to take place. Something as simple as, Please help me... well, please help me. it is day five and I feel much better but these cravings are tough... it's 10:30 am -- we'll see how it goes.